Tuesday, September 27, 2011

forgotten blessings

So it has been a significant amount of time since I posted on my blog. Truthfully, I think it is because I feel like my life right now is pretty uneventful. I tend to watch a lot of television. Its sort of my coping mechanism. See, if I'm completely absorbed in tv, then I'm not stressing about all the dishes on my counter or the piles of clean laundry that need to be folded on my loveseat. And I'm not worrying about money or food stamps or job openings. Its actually extremely effective. But today, I've been catching up on my friend's blog. She has the amazing opportunity to travel the world with her church praying and ministering and truly living. I envy her. I wish so strongly that I could travel the world and help and learn first hand of different cultures and people. I covet the life she is leading.

I realized something after regretting certain life choices and beating myself up over this mundane life I lead: I am so blessed! With all that I have, how dare I consider my life mundane! How dare I regret that paths that my life has taken! I am surrounded by people who love me and, more importantly, I have the Gospel of Jesus Christ in my life! How is it that I forget this so easily? How is it that I am not running down the street sharing this with everyone I run into? How is it that I am not elated and excited about this every minute of every day? How am I not sharing this with my friends and neighbors every opportunity that I have? I am so lucky to have the Gospel in my life, why would I not want other people to be as lucky as I am?

So today I made a decision. I'm going to make my life eventful. Not "travel-the-world" eventful, but eventful enough that I don't covet what others have. Enough so that I look forward to the day ahead. Eventful enough so that I allow others to have the same knowledge I have of my Savior Jesus Christ and all the blessings He has afforded us. Eventful enough so that I am a happier wife for my husband, mother to my child and friend to those I surround myself with. After all, life is what you make it and I am done being a couch-potato mama.